I have a confession to make. For the past few days I have been feeling on-and-off, heavy energetically and overall a bit flat.
I knew consciously what I was doing but I was so stuck in the cycle of thoughts and feelings that I wasn’t able to get myself out.
Basically, I was looping my thoughts and feelings (they feed off each other).
And I kept finding ways to reinforce the looping.
I was doing something I know is a conditioning of society, completely useless and a long way from who I am.
I was comparing myself with others and their achievements (and the success I perceived).
And rather than thinking, feeling and being happy and excited for them I WAS JUDGING MYSELF for not getting enough done. Not achieving enough.
In other words…
I WAS TELLING MYSELF I WASN’T ENOUGH.
In that moment I was letting myself feel inferior.
- Where was MY LOVE (my self love)
- Where was MY KINDNESS (my self kindness)
- Where was MY COMPASSION (my self compassion)
And… the only thing that got me to stop the looping was sharing what I was experiencing with Mark.
And… in one question he broke my state and my looping. In that moment I saw through what I was doing and I released the self-judgment.
“What is your highest value?”
In that one question Mark was bringing me back to me and my centre.
See… I was basing my judgements and comparisons on absolutely nothing.
… I know this stuff
… I teach this stuff
And yet… there I was trapped in my own self-judgment. Comparing something that wasn’t even there to compare (because at our essence WE ARE ALL LOVE).
But… the experience did remind me of how very human I am. And how susceptible I can be (and we all can be) to measuring our own path and journey against the experiences of others and their path.
So… here I am…
…Returning to LOVE…
…Returning to KINDNESS…
…Returning to COMPASSION…
And also acknowledging how I have been thinking and feeling so I can help myself…
… to peel back the layers
… to learn what I need to learn
… to move forward and beyond
Because it is doing this inner work
(especially when it’s uncomfortable),
acknowledging ourselves and where we are at,
how we are responding
and how we are showing up,
that supports our evolution.
I AM ENOUGH
I AM COMMITTED to MY OWN EVOLUTION
Evolutionary Guide. Vitality Consultant. Coach with Purpose and Passion.
By letting go of cultural conditioning my clients live in higher states of vitality and love, evolving towards fulfilling their greatest purpose. I’m available at firstname.lastname@example.org if you want to learn more