I felt GUILTY and UNWORTHY 💔
One of my biggest drivers is CONTRIBUTION and a deep desire to make a positive difference to the lives of others.
When I started Soles4Souls Australia 👣 contribution was my driving force. It was what got me up and going each day and it’s why I was able to make the impact I did in such a short period of time.
However I regularly experienced BURNOUT because I didn’t nourish me during that time. I put others above me and my own WELLBEING. I also had no measure for SUCCESS – nothing I did was ever “enough” for me.
I also got sick a lot with colds and sore throats because I had put myself under so much financial PRESSURE. 💲🤧
At the time I didn’t know about programming, including money programs, and how much these shape our DECISIONS at an unconscious level.
I didn’t know that money programming (as with a lot of our programming) is passed down through generations. This, combined with my own life experiences of seeing first hand (and living amongst it within the community) the poverty and poor living conditions of people in rural Kenya, lead to a great deal of GUILT.
I felt “UNWORTHY”.
I felt guilty for growing up in a loving, safe family where there was always food, clean water, shelter and opportunities. 💜🥛🥗🍏
While I would never say we were “wealthy” by western standards, from my perspective at the time I grew up with so much more than a very large majority of the world.
(Did you know that if you have food in your fridge, clothes to wear, live in a house or apartment and have a reasonably reliable means of transportation, you are among the top 15% of the world’s wealthy.) 👕👟🏠🚇
But rather than feeling GRATITUDE I felt GUILT.
I had done very well in the “birth lotto” (the philosophical idea that we do not choose whether we are born into a “rich” or “poor” country / community / family) but I was confused and disturbed by the inequalities in the world 🌏 and the very unbalanced distribution of resources. I also really “struggled” with the seeming materialism of our way of life in Australia.
I then made unconscious decisions which ensured I too lived under the “poverty line” by giving “everything” away – time & money – so I didn’t feel too guilty about my good fortune. 🕧💲
At the time I could articulate some of this behaviour and choices consciously but I didn’t have a deep AWARENESS and I also had no idea how to navigate to a higher level of CONSCIOUSNESS or EMPOWERMENT. I was an unknowing / unconscious victim of my programming and conditioning.
In one way or another this is the truth for the majority of the global population. We unconsciously become the products of our environment and the PROGRAMMING and conditioning of our family, friends, society and experiences.
For some of us…
… We will begin to AWAKEN from this sleep state during this lifetime. 😴👀
… We will begin to realise the world 🌏 is not what it appears.
… We will start asking QUESTIONS of ourselves and others “why are we here?”, “what are we doing with our lives?”, “why do we do x, y, x?”, “is this all there is?” ⁉️
But… without the right level of SUPPORT from the right MENTORS we never transcend our current reality.
We may want more and we may DESIRE a different reality…
…But until we get to the core and make changes at the unconscious level the programs will remain and our lives will run on repeat.
In the end I was “lucky”. I had some great coaches and mentors show-up in my life who helped me to TRANSCEND a lot of my unconscious PROGRAMMING.
This helped me to align with a HIGHER TRUTH and grow my awareness in areas I didn’t even know existed.
But… it was my own COMMITMENT to CHANGE that ensured different RESULTS and a different reality unfolded in my life.
Today, contribution remains one of my highest VALUES and driving forces. I love working with people and having deep and profound conversations which shift levels of consciousness.
I get EXCITED seeing the BREAKTHROUGHS experienced by others. 🤩
I AM GRATEFUL for all I have experienced and the tools I now have to work with people who are committed to their path and their own evolution. 🙏
And… above all, I remain committed to my own path and my own EVOLUTION so I can continue to be of SERVICE to others and the world in a way which is in ALIGNMENT with my soul’s PURPOSE.
This is why I became a coach.
My JOY and PURPOSE is to be of service to others. To offer VALUE where needed and to support and GUIDE those who are ready to transcend their current reality, to live in ALIGNMENT with their TRUTH and greater PURPOSE and experience a greater level of JOY and LOVE in their life.
As a coach and guide…
- I am committed to you.
- I believe in you.
- I already know you can do this.
If you are READY, then the FREE Project 2018 webinar is for you.
This is a free live online call where Mark and I will be sharing the secrets to living a HOLISTIC LIFE which is alignment with you and the future you want to experience.